Thursday, March 5, 2009

We know..

As many of you know, Casey and I are adopting.

For the past several months, we've had the wonderful blessing of working closely with a great lady in Tahiti, who coordinates a lot of adoptions. At the end of November we were 'matched' with a birth mother(due mid-february), whom we loved immediately. She quickly decided she wanted us to raise her baby. Everything started to fall into place. . this would be her 3rd time placing a baby for adoption, so were were hopeful.

But most of all I have to say we have been blessed. If there was ever any doubt before, we know now that Heavenly Father is mindful of us, loves us, and has a plan in place for us.

So for the past several months we have been preparing physically, financially and emotionally for the birth of a little boy.

This last week we learned, this little guy is no longer ours to prepare for. The birth mother changed her mind.

I want all of you who love us to know, how grateful we are. Grateful that we know our Father in Heaven. Grateful that He is carrying us through this hard time. Grateful to know that His will is the only will we want to be apart of. Grateful for the amazing amounts of people who have been praying for us. Mostly grateful to know that its all going to work out, we will have the blessings of parenthood in our lives. When the time comes we will be better because of this. Of that we are sure.

Take a minute if you would to view the last minute of this video. The whole thing is wonderful, but particularly from 5:45 on.
http://www.youtube.com/swf/l.swf?video_id=snAjZ8mfoYw&rel=1&eurl=&iurl=http

9 comments:

Lara said...

This same thing has happened to so many of my friends who adopted. And yet, when it was finally the right baby, everything worked out wonderfully. I think that there are certain spirits that are meant to be yours in this life, and you'll have them. If they aren't meant to be yours, it won't work out. It's an emotional roller coaster for sure.

You have a wonderful attitude about it. Love you guys!

Katie Nikolaus said...

Ditto to Lara! I love you guys! I'm sorry we haven't been able to connect this week. Please call me when you get a minute! Keep your chin up, Heavenly father has a Wonderful plan in store for you I am sure!

I love you!

Murray Family said...

I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how difficult that must have been. I think you guys are great.

{bk} jones said...

Ki- I am so sorry things with this little baby did not work out..its funny because I think I might be just as affected by this as you..seeing as I feel like we are in this together. Know that you are always in my prayers and things will get better for you! You two will make wonderful parents here soon! Thanks for being so strong and for allowing me to vent and feel understood whenever I need!

Lana and Micah said...

Ki! Thank you soOo much for sharing your story. You & your family are in our thoughts and prayers. Love you.

Shawn and Sally Barrington said...

I can't even express how proud Shawn and I are of you guys. You are being so brave and understandin! We pray for "Your kid" to come to you, how ever that my be. You never know what Heavenly Father has in store for you! Our advice... Just enjoy the ride!

xoxoxo

Kevin and Ciara Slider said...

ki- i'm so sorry about what has happened. i know alot of people who have had the same thing happen to them and i know it's so hard right now but there is a reason and one day you will be thankful for this trail. i love you guys and hope your doing ok. -ciara

Rachel said...

Ki I'm so sorry. You have a great attitude we will keep you guys in our prays.

Rachel said...

I thought you might like this. I know word of mouth is good. Here is a blog post that might help you on adoption.
http://mormonmommyblogs.blogspot.com/2009/04/coming-out-of-adoption-closet-guest.html